Anyone out there… It’s been a while!!
Lets get right into it.
This time last year I came back from my mini-world trip with my best friend. I was going to write all about it, I was so excited to share everything I had seen and got the chance to do (Desert Safari in Dubai – add it to your bucket list!).
Then I came home and my life had done a 360. The moral of the story is – I had just finished uni and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I had left with a boyfriend and came back without one and I was excepted to know exactly what was next for me.
After the best few weeks it was a harsh reality.
I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I still don’t. Who even truly does?!
So I’ve worked ruddy hard over the last year, on myself and in my work life. I worked 4 jobs, I cut out people who weren’t good for my life or good to me. I focussed on the relationships I had with my family and made them stronger. I was harsh but I needed to be.
For the first time in 24 years I asked myself what I wanted. All I knew is I wanted more. To experience more. Keep growing. Never settling. Never stopping.
So 1 year on here I am. If you knew me personally, the change can be seen just by looking at me. My family and friends comment on how strong I am, how I don’t stop and keep going. That’s me – no more stopping. I have done many times and have wasted so much time. Be it on boyfriends, friends and horrible jobs. If it doesn’t make you happy, make you grow or make you want to get out of bed in the more – why the hell are you doing it? To pay a bill? Because you don’t want to be alone? You’re scared that it might hurt? Change is scary.
However, I called the BS line on myself. Never have I once looked back. Not everything I want from life has happened. Thats fine. I’ll find new thing that work. It’s been hard. It still can be hard. Worth it though.
So that is where I am now. I am writing this blog – not from my home in Scotland. From Boston, Massachusetts!
I made a decision and went in blind before I could change my mind or before anyone could make me question it.
I have now been in America for a month, being an Au Pair for the most beautiful little family.
I already know this is going to be one the best things I will ever do. More on that later.
For now, I just wanted to write. Wanted to come back to something I enjoyed! Because I enjoy everything I do now and I want to share it.
So stick around for for my new journey! I cant wait to see what tomorrow will bring!!
**side note. I wrote this listening to Destiny’s Child – Survivor. Coincidence?! I think not.